Thursday, May 14, 2009

Part 5!!!

WOOO!! Go PENS!!!!! We did it! I was lucky enough to get to go to a game because my friend passed away recently and had two tickets and his g/f gave them to me because she didn't feel right going and knew how much him and I loved the guys. We won that game and I swear I felt my buddy there with me! Once again, thanks to the girls who follow this story and leave comments they mean SO much! Now on to the story....


-KPOV-
I just told a female that wasn't family that I loved them. I hadn't done that since Jenny died. I was filled with so many mixed emotions I felt like I had to get out for awhile and clear my head.
"Hey I am really hungry for some Chinese, you want any?" I asked moving away from her.
She looked really hurt at this, but there was nothing I could say.
"I just told you I loved you and you said you love me and all you can think about is food?" She asked looking at the floor. "Man, must be some strong feelings there."
"Look, I do. I just...." I couldn't talk. I grabbed my keys and left.
I jumped in my blakc BMW 325 I and took off. I had no idea where I was going conciously, but the car knew the way. It was a long 25 minute drive to the graveyard. I had no idea what drove me here, but I felt I had to okay this with Jenny. I made a promise when she died that I would never give my heart again. I got out and walked to her site. The pink and purple roses I had left the last time I was here were still on top.
"Hey Jenny. I don't know why I am here. I felt like I had to talk to someone. You were always my ear after Luc died. I hope you aren't mad at me. I never knew that I would or could feel this way about anyone but you. Everything around here reminds me of you. At the hospital, all I could do was remember getting there and getting the news. I hope you know I tried to get there before you were gone. I miss you so much....sometimes it hurts so bad to go back to the loft and know you aren't going to be there. I expect to walk in and trip over your shoes, remember how you always left them there and it never failed that I would find them? Haha....oh remember the time you left them there and I fell and broke my tailbone?! I thought Coach was gonna die when I had to sit out two days of practice!" Tears were streaming down my face now. I felt so dumb talking to a stone, but I felt like she could hear me. "Enough about that, I just need to know that its okay that I'm trying to move on. I want you to know you will always have a special place in my heart nobody will ever get to. I will never forget you and the times we had. You were my best friend and always will be. I miss you so much." I kissed the stone and went to my car. It started to rain right as I started the car. I looked up to the sky and saw the brightest rainbow I had ever seen before. I knew that it was Jenny telling me everything would be okay. I smiled at the sky. "Thanks Jenny." I drove back to the loft. I had to make it up to Heather.

-HPOV-
When he walked out, I stood there shocked for about twenty minutes. When that wore off, I called Talbot. Him and I were getting really close lately.
"Superstar here, I pimp em you freak em."
I died laughing. "STFU!" I said through the laughter, "Can you stop by? I really need someone to talk to and well, you always make me laugh."
"Sure babes. What's wrong? I'm on my way to get Cooke now. We were gonna come by with the dvd of your new music video anyway in a bit." He replied in his dropdead sexy french accent.
"Okay, well where do I start....I told Kris I loved him and he freaked out. He said he loved me too but then he just flat out flipped out and left. Idk what I did." I said now turning sad again.
"Ahhh.....don't worry about it hon. He loves you. Everybody around you two can see it. We were just wondering when it was going to happen. He probably got to thinking about Jenny. Give him time he'll come around. Hate to run, but I am at Cookes house now. We'll be there in about an hour okay? I'll call the others and tell them to come watch your big debut!"
"Okay Max. Thanks a lot!" I said and hung up the phone gingerly. Damn stitches!
About twenty minutes later, I heard footsteps in the hallway outside the door. I was sitting on the couch with ice packs on my wrists when he came through the door.
"Can we talk?" He asked with sad eyes. It looked like he had been crying.
"Sure," I said patting the couch, "come on and sit down."
He cautiously took a few steps and sat down.
"Okay, let me talk before you say anything okay? I gotta lot to say." He said in his adorable voice nobody in their right mind could resist.
"Okay." I replied, giving him my attention.
"When we first met, you know Jenny had just died. I made a promise to her that I would never love anyone again. But then, I got to know you and fell in love so hard it scared me. I was torn between you and my promsie to her. When you told me you loved me and I said it back, I didn't put my heart into it. I got scared. I meant it though. I just had to go talk to Jenny and find out if it was okay from her. When I left the cemetery today, it started to rain and then there was the most beauitful rainbow I had ever seen. It was like she was saying it was okay. You are the one I searched for since she died. I never thought this would happen but it did. I feel like I have an angel here with me when i see you. I never believed in miricles until the day I met you. In the past few months I have gotten to know you, the good and bad. You have never done anything to hurt anyone I know. You were the light in one of my darkest hours. I am in love with you. You set me free. I can't do this thing called life without you here with me. I'll never leave you like some other guys in your life have. You love me for who I am. I know it isn't going to be easy but with dedication we can make this work. I can see my future in your eyes. I realized that you were sent here for me by a higher power."
"Kris, nobody has ever said anything like that to me before. I love you so much." I had tears streaming down my face. Nobody had ever said that to me before. If he only knew how dangerously in love I was with him myself.
"So, will you and AJ move in with me here?" He looked at me with so much love in his eyes.
"Of course!" I said, I wanted to hug him but my wrists wouldn't let me.
There was a knock at the door.
"Someone supposed to be here?" He asked quizically.
"Some of the gang was coming by to watch my new music video. Cookie got it for me." I said smiling. He wiped the tears from my face, gave me a quick kiss on the lips, said he loved me, and went to open the door.
"SUPERSTAR HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard Max yell when he came in.
"He thinks he's hot shit, but h hasn't scored in how many games?" I heard MAF say laughing, "Hey hon, sorry I didn't get over here earlier. Vero has her parents in for the week. She sends her love and said if you need anything girlie to give her a call." He leaned down to hug me gingerly.
"It's okay. Tell her I said thanks. I got a lot of offers for that." I smiled at him.
"How you feeling babe?" I heard Cooke ask from behind the crowd. It looked as though ninty-nine percent of the team had gathered in my livingroom. The only ones absent were Craig Adams and Miro Satan. Yes, Geno was there.
"I've been better," I said, "where's my video?! I wanna watch it!"
"Great to see you too!" He replied.
"Hey Heather! Long time no see!" Mark Eaton said as he came into view.
"Sorry, been so busy lately! Our Adrianna's need to get together soon for a playdate." I smiled at my Slooth. (*Note* If you ever watch Ice Age, look at the slooth.....it looks like Eaton in a cute way! SERIOUSLY! LOL And yes my daughters really name is Adrianna just like his!*)
"Yeah they do. Give me a call on one of our off days and I will bring her by."
After all the others said their hellos, we all got comfortable and Tanger put the dvd in.

*(This song is by Lesley Roy. She is one of the best artists I have heard in SOOOOOO long. Her cd is the one that gave me ideas for this story. The music video is my ideas for it but the song and lyrics are copyrighted to her!!!!!)*
Lyrics to the song go:

I can read the lines
On your face
And they're telling me
Everything I already know
YeahI hold you in my arms
But you're light-years away from me
Slowly sinking
Under alone
Yeah
So I act cool
On the outside
But it's eating me
Alive
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Sitting in the park after dark
Smoking cigarettes
Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all I ever wanted was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right but it's too late
I'm a hopeless case
On the insideAnd it's eating me
Alive
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can doI can't make you love me
When you don'tI see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
I dieA million times
Every time when you
Look me in the eye
And lie
Cause I've heard it all before
The same game
We go around and around
But I still end up with nothing
But hurting
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can doI can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Yeah
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don'tI see it in your eyesI'm the compromise
I can't take another
Slow goodbye

I heard the opening chords and got lost in the video.
It started with me playing my guitar standing in the bedroom. Cooke was packing his bag and I was singing to him. When the chorus hits, it flashes back to happier times. We are dancing in the rain, playing in the bedroom, etc. The second verse I am sitting on the hood of an old mustang with a cig in one hand and biting the black polish off my nails. We have another fight and he walks away. When the chorus comes around again, Iam playing my guitar in the rain singing my heart out outside of the house. Then comes the bridge.....we are in the room fighting. I have a cellphone in my hand and in anger I throw it at the mirror and the mirror crashes. I have the look of anger in my eyes. When the song comes around again, I am sitting on the ground crying as he walks out the door. Flashes of good times show again. The end of the song shows me walking down the street with the guitar on my back.

"WOW! That was fucking amazing!" Sid said as the song ended.
"I have to agree! Babe you are a great actor!" Scuds said from his spot on the floor.
"Hey Heather, do me a favor next time." Cooke says from across the room.
"What's that?" I ask smiling.
"Never EVER look at me that way again!" He laughed.
"Why?" I was puzzled.
"I know I told you to picture some stuff, but damn I thought you were going to kill me!"
"HAHA! Yeah! You did look like he was going to die!" Sarah laughed.
"What did you think babe?" I asked laughing looking at Kris.
"That was amazing baby! It's like you really felt what you were singing." He said kissing my cheek.
"When does it go on air?" Mischa asked.
"Yeah, I wanna call and request it a million times!" Rachel said.
"Wow guys, didn't think you would like it that much!" I was shocked and amazed people liked my music that much.
"I like. Beautiful." Geno said after being quiet for so long. "Who was for?" He asked in his broken English.
"You." I responded getting up to stretch.

-KPOV-
She had no idea how amazing her voice was. She never gave herself credit for anything. She was an amazing all around package. A great singer, dancer, songwriter, mother, and girlfriend. How did I get so lucky? She got up to stretch.
"Well guys," I hear her say, "I hate to have you come all the way here to kick you out, but I am tired and starting to really hurt so I am going to bed. It's up to Kris if you all stay, but I really don't feel like it. You guys have a game tomorrow night and it's also going to be Valentine's Day. Go spend it with your woman!"
Everyone said good night and left. They all looked pretty haggard. I know I was exhusted emotionally and phyiscally myself.
"You coming to bed?" She asked swaying her hips back and forth with a come get me grin.
"Hurting my ass!" I laughed as I picked her up and carried her down the hall. Hey, they always say makeup sex is the best!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Part 4

Still KPOV

"Ms. Gates...." I heard the doctor say.
"Yeah?" I heard the tone of her voice, she was in pain.
"Do you feel like you can go home and stay comfortable?" I heard him continue. I was stressing to hear everything from outside the closed door. Everyone had went home but TK, Rachel (Staals woman), and myself. Everyone else was on standby.
"Yeah, I think so. How long do I have to keep this crap on my wrists?"
"About a week. They need to be changed every day, and kept dry. If you have any problems or question, I will leave my contact info for you. I need to see you for a follow up in about 3 days. Seems like you have a following outside waiting for you. I know you'll be in great hands." The door opened so TK and I backed off.
"Well guys, she can go home. I want her to rest. She'll need a lot of help while the wounds heal. She'll need to follow up with me in a few days." He smiled at us. "She is set to go home."
"Thanks doc." I said. I didn't want to try to pronounce big words right now, my accent would get in the way too much. I just wanted to get her and get out of there.


-HPOV-
"Ugh! Come on Kris! I can walk!" I said annoyed as he carried me to his loft.
"You might be able to walk, but I don't want you to fall and reopen those." He said looking at the bandages.
"Kristopher Sheldon Letang put me DOWN!" I was getting more annoyed than ever because of the mediction.
"NO!" He replied. I saw a flash of anger in his eye and dropped it.
Once we got inside, I saw Sarah, Mischa, Rachel, Cooke, and his wife.
"Wow....you'd think I died or something." I said with a yawn.
"Well! You need us here to help you out! Kelsey said she'd be here after she got off work too. AJ is going to stay with Mrs. Malkin until you start to feel better." Rachel said looking at me with pleading eyes, "Besides, you have to have someone help you pee!" She laughed.
I rolled my eyes in response.
"Did anyone get the hard copy of the music video?" I asked looking around.
"Sid said he'd pick it up later today. The producer had to work with the final shot." Sarah replied, thinking how gross that scene really turned out to be.
There was a knock at the door.
"I'll get it." Cooke said getting up from the couch he was sitting on.
We walked down the hallway to the door. I heard the door open and could only make out half the conversation.
"No, I don't think that's a good idea." I heard Cooke say, "No, she is fine. She's resting. She doesn't ned stress right now Geno."
"Oh God!" I said outloud.
"What baby? You okay?" Kris said jumping up. This caused every head in the room to turn and look at them.
"I'm fine. WHAT?!" I said looking at them.
""Baby?" Rachel choked out.
"Yeah, we are together. Fine! Everybody happy now?!" I asked.
"Woah! Since when! Why wasn't I clued in on this?" Mischa said looking a little hurt.
"Since TB." I replied matter of factly.
"Olay everybody, I hate doing this to you but Heather needs rest. You guys can come back later." Kris replied stepping in to nip the drama in the butt.
With a lot of moans and groans everyone left.
"Thanks baby." Ireplied yawning again. Damn pain meds.
"Anything for you." He said, kissing my forehead. "You hungry?"
"Sorta. I wanted to tell you something though...." I was hoping he would let me get it out this time.
"Wait a minute. What do you want to eat? Chinese? Sushi? Perogies? Tacos?"
"KRIS!" I yelled.
"WHAT!?" He yelled back.
He wouldn't listen so I had to show him. He looked at me with panic in his eyes as I walked to him.
"I said I needed to tell you something now twice and you've weezeled your way out, you aren't this time!"
"What is it then?" He asked licking his lips.
"I..." -ring ring- The phone started to ring. "Ignore it."I responded.
"But..." He started to say.
"No buts! Listen to me....." I rested my arms on his shoulders. "Look at me.
"What?" He asked in a gentle voice this time. He looked at me with those eyes that made me melt.
"I love you. I need you. I want you." I said.
"I....I love you too." He replied kissing me so softly.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Part 3

Thanks to the girls that are following this! You know who you are! :)


The next day before getting on the plane.....

-HPOV-
I hated the sound of the alarm clock at 5:30 in the morning! I yawned and realized that someone was holding me. I smiled as he reached to turn th alarm off.
"Morning..." He said smiling sleepily.
"Morning!" I replied more chipper than usual.
"You know, people are gonna be talking today." He said getting out of the bed.
"I know. Starting with Kelsey...." I laughed. I had to risk going to what should have been my room.
"Haha! Good luck! You'll smell like sex for months now!.....Oh wait! TK dropped your clothes off here yesterday. You are good!" He pointed to the corner.
"That would be mine! Thank you TK!" I said with fake enthusiasium.
"You know you love him!" He replied pulling his jeans and shirt on.
I finally drug myself out of the bed and went to my bag. I figured we were going to be on a plane home today so I could just relax. I pulled on a pair of tattered jeans and my favorite Aeropostale shirt I got in Pittsburgh. I had a smile on my face that I couldn't wipe off today. I hoped he didn't notce it........

-KPOV-
She was smiling likea little kid getting the toy they had begged for all year long. I smiled to myself as I held the hotel door for her.
"You sure you don't want me to carry my own bag?" She asked.
"Now, Heather! I carry around a 100 pound hockey bag every day and you are asking me about this stupid 20 pound bag?!" I acted hurt.
"I'm sorry..." She said.
"I was joking! Remember, you are with me now, not him. You can joke you know!" I replied giving her a hug. "And don't say you are sorry all the time. You have nothing to be sorry for."
As we loaded the bus she got pulled away by all her girlfriends. She looked back to me pleading. I smiled before I got bombarded by the guys.
""Hey Tanger Banger!" Talbot said coming up behind me. "What happened last night? You finally get laid!?"
"Nothing happened." I replied taking my carry-on with me.
"Come on! You know you hit that!" Dups said egging me on.
"We slept in seperate beds. I'm a gentleman." I replied. I hated when they did this.
Everyone on the team gave e hell for not sleeping around and being what Sid called a manwhore.
"I will find out you know that right?!" Dups said.
"Come on guys!" The new coach yelled.

-HPOV-
"Come on guys! Bus is leaving!" I heard the new coach yell. "You girls can finish your chitchat on the bus!" He pointed to Kris and the other guys around him. Us girls died laughing. Kris stopped me outsde the bus.
"What did you tell them?" He questioned.
"I told them we were friends and nothing happened. Mischa doesn't believe me. Rachel said Staalsy told her he heard us on the way to their room. Sarah said she doesn't care." I replied looking into his gorgeous hazel eyes. " And you?"
"Same thing pretty much. Dups and Superstar don't believe me though." He said, looking around us.
"Hey Heather! Hey Kris!" Sykora said walking by. Kris gave him a look to see if he had heard anything.
"Hey Pittbull!" I replied, elbowing Tanger when Syykie turned around.
"What?!" He asked.
"You look guilty! Play cool damnit!" I said. I was getting pissed.
"Look, there's Sid. I gotta go talk to him about something. Talk to you at the airport?" He said looking away.
"Sure. I'm just gonna work on some music." I replied pulling out my lyric filled leather bound book Sarah had gotten me for my birthday the year before.

-On the plane....still HPOV-

"Hey Heather! What's up?" Matt Cooke asked sitting next to me.
"Hey Cookie Monster!" I said looking up from my writing. " Just working on some music for when I get back. I still got a lot to do at the studio."
"That's awsome! I can not wait to hear your songs. The wife said she wants to come on tour with you haha! I told her no way in hell! She's my MILF!" He replied laughing.
He and his wife were some of my closest friends in Pitt. "Have you decided where you are going to live now? I know your daughter is coming home soon."
"No, I haven't. I was going to look online when we got back at some places. I guess I don't have a home to go to now." I was getting really down then.
"What about TK? You two are really close." He said pulling me into a hug.
"Idk Cookie. That place is already pretty full. I mean, I have my daughter. Idk if I want her to be around partying and all when I do get to spend time with her. Him and Staalsy party way too hard."
'Well, don't get down. You can stay with us if you need to until you find a place." He smiled.
He always knew just what to say to light up the dark.
"Thanks! Btw! I wanted to ask you a personal favor but you can't tell anyone."
"Sure hon, what is it?"
"I want you to be the love interest in my music video for Slow Good-bye. You don't have to if you don't want to, but I wanted to do it as a thank you. You supported my music when not a lot of people did."
"I'd be honored! Tell me when to be there and I will do my best!" He said smiling and getting up. "Now if you excuse me.....Crosby has challenged me to a SoCom war on PSP!"
"Alright! Kick his ass! Show him up! Get some bragging rights!" I replied.
The rest of the plane ride to Pitt was uneventful for the most part. Flower and Godard started a small food fight though that pretty much trashed the plane. By the time we got off of it, I think the crew was more happier to be on solid ground than we were.

Over the next few weeks, I stayed with Cooke and his wife. In return I babysat when I wasn't at the studio. Tanger and I snuck around seeing each other at this time as well. We were taking it slow, figuring out if it was something we really wanted or not before we told everyone else. Nobody but TK knew what was going on. I went to as many games as I could to cheer them all on. I was finally coming to terms with these emotions overtaking me. It was almost Valentine's Day when I got word from my record label that I could start my music video. I gave Cooke the dates and where to be. I couldn't believe how lucky I was right now.
-On the set of the music video-
"Okay Heather! I am here to love you!" Cooke said laughing. His two kids were playing with my daughter in my tralier.
"Okay, here is the teatement for the music video. Basically we are lovers who keep fighting. Diferent aspects of it. A lot of flashbacks and such. Then at one point, I throw my cellphone at the mirror and shatter it." I said, holding a piece of my signature teal and pink paper.
"K. Sounds good!"
"Okay Heather, you ready?" The director asked, while setting up a camera.
"Yep! Here we go Cookie!" I skipped to my spot and waited for my cue.
I poured my heart into the song. It was about myself and Geno. About the times we said good-bye and came back. It basically played out our entire relationship for the world to see. When it came to the bridge, I froze.
"What's wrong?" Cooke asked when the camera stopped.
"I can't get the emotion I want." I said, shocked. I wanted to be pissed at Geno for everything. Every lie, every game he played on me.
"Okay, think back to the worst time of you and him. Now look at me and sing it like I was him. Get mad at me." Cooke said trying to help me.
"Okay roll!" I yelled.
I went back in my mind to the night at the bar. The more I thought about it, the more pissed I got. I sang with every emotion in me. When it came to throwing the cell, I did not realizing I threw it a little too hard. Glass went into my wrists.
"FUCK!" I yelled as the burning pain traveled up my arm.
"Grab a towl!" Was the last thing I remembered until I woke up at the ER.

-KPOV-
My cellphone was going off like crazy. I figured it was my mom again, checking up on me. Then Staal came running up to me.
"TANGER! Heather was hurt! We gotta get to the hospital!" He was running, throwing shoes on and grabbing truck keys.
I stood there in shock.
'Are you coming!?" He yelled. I snapped out of it, throwing my wireless controller to the floor. I don't remember the ride to the hospital. When we finally got there, TK met us outside. He had a Newport in his one hand and a lighter in the other.
"What happened?!" Staalsy asked nervously.
"All I know, " TK replied lighting the cigerette and inhaling once, "is that she got cut somehow on the video set. Cooke is covered in blood and freaking out. She's in some kind of surgery." He exhaled.
"Where's her daughter?!" I asked, knowing AJ was there today.
"Natalie Malkin has her. She's fine. She doesn't even know anything happened really." TK replied.
"What's up with you two? You are really protective of her lately." Staalsy asked starting to calm down after taking a few hits from TK's Newport.
"This isn't the time. I'm going inside." I replied pissed and scared. This was the hospital I had to say good-bye to Jenny in. I hated everything about it.
"COOKE!" I yelled as I walked in.
"Tanger, she's asking for you. She just woke up."He replied walking up to me. I saw the blood all over his shirt.
"What happened?" I had to know before I walked in on it
"She was supposed to throw this cell at a mirror that wasn't supposed to actual glass but it was and it shattered all over her arms. Her one wrist was really bad and they had to go in and make some repairs. She's going to be okay though." Cooke said, looking me in the eyes to see if I was okay. "I know you hate this hospital bro. I'm sorry you had to come back for something like this. I know you two are really clsoe friends. I'll leave you alone now to go be with her."
"Thanks Cooke." I said shaking his hand.
I walked in to her room and saw her laying there.
-Flashback-
"Tanger. Jenny was in an accident. I don't know how bad it is, but it doesn't look good. You need to get to UPMC as soon as possible." Mario said pulling me into the locker room after a winning game.
"What?! I don't know how to get there. I...I..." I freaked out.
"Come on man, I'll take you. I know exactly where it is." Matt Cooke said overhearing our conversation.
"Thanks!"
-End flashback-
She looked so pale laying there. She opened her eyes and smiled at me.
"Hey...." She sounded so weak.
"Shh....don't talk! Save your energy. Just rest. I'm here." I said leaning down and kissing her forehead.
"Tanger, I'm gonna be fine. I just can't move my wrists for two weeks." She said looking so serious.
"Just rest. You are coming back to my place. I'll take care of AJ so don't worry about her."
I brushed some of her stray hairs out of her face.
"Tanger, I need to tell you something. I've held it in long enough."
"What?" I was afraid.
"I....Kris...I..." She was inturupted by the nurse.
"How are you feeling hon?" The nurse asked her, checking all the normal stuff.
"Fine. My arms are numb but I know why. When can I get out of here?" She hated these places as much as I did.
"The surgeon wants to talk to you in about an hour and see how you feel then. If you are comfortable enough, he might let you go home. Until then sir," She looked at me, "you need to step out and let her rest."
"Okay, sure thing."I replied. "I'll be back to get you in a little bit." I said kissing her head.
"But Kris, I wanna tell you..."
"Tell me later." By then the pain medicine the nurse gave her had started to kick in and her eyes got heavy.
I think she was asleep by the time I walked out of the room.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Part 2!!!

Hey girls! So sorry about the lack of major updates lately! I started a new job and I am working 12 hours a day 5 days a week plus my daughter is in all kinds of sports so they might be few and far in between but thank you for the comments! Keep them coming!!!!!


"Lets get him back to the hotel before I puke!" Talbot said.

-Later that night-

-Knock Knock-
Heather heard on her door an almost silent knock.
"Heather, its Sarah hon. Are you okay?" Sarah, Heather's best friend and Sid Crosby's girlfriend called through the door.
Heather got off the bed and opened the door.
"Hey...." Heather slurred in a drunken crying fit.
"Oh my poor closet Canadian!" Sarah responded to the look on her friends face. It was their personal inside joke that always made her laugh.
"I can't believe he did that!" Heather cried, not laughing and slamming the door.
"Wow...okay....hon listen, he's not worth it! You are so pretty and funny, and look at what he's with! She looks like a rat wih over grown teeth and hair!" Sarah was laughing while saying this. At that moment Heather lost it and died laughing.
"HAHAHA! SO true! Oh Sarah, no matter what you can make me laugh my ass off!" Heather replied through tears of laughter instead of sadness now.
"C'mon eh! Let's go check on Tangers!" Sarah extended her hands out to help Heather off the floor which she had fallen on laughing.

-Kris' POV-

"I was so stupid not to take my migrine medicine this morning!" Kris thought to himself. "That check by Tampa Bay was't helping either!" It was 2:45 in the morning and he couldn't sleep. Talbot wasn't back from hanging with Staal so it was nice and quiet. I couldn't stop thinking about Heather at the bar. She was so heartbroken, yet so caring about me. Over the past few months we had ecome close, but she loved Geno , not me. I had lost Jenny about six months before meeting her. Some drunk driver took her from me. Heather had been there to listen . She was everything Jenny couldn't be to me anymore. I was about to fall asleep when I heard a knock at the door followed by a slew of giggles. I figured it was some teenager or puckbunny and tried to ignore it. I turned over and that's when I heard Sarah's thick Canadian accent through the door.
"Come on Heather. He must be asleep. We'll check on him in the morning."
I got out of bed so fast I thought I was going to puke again from the pain. I knew I had to see her though. To make sure she was okay.
"Hang on! I'm coming!" I called into the dark. God that really didn't sound right....I laughed thinking to myself.
I opened thedoor and stepped back squinting from the bright lights of the hotel hallway.
"Oh sorry!" Heather said as her and Sarah stepped quickly inside.
"It's cool. I took some meds so I should start feeling bettr here soon." I replied.
"Um....Kris....I can't see a thing and I am NOT risking my life to get to a chair in here!" Sarah said laughing. I could tell she was up to something. "Besides, I am really tired so I am going to go back to Sid. Just wanted to make sure you were okay." And like that she was gone. So there we wee alone. I could tell she was drunk. She was too giggly and couldn't stand up without holding onto the wall.
"Here, take my hand." I said to her holding it out for her to take.
"Ugh! I HATE TALBOT RIGHT NOW!" She slurred. "He gve me vodka when we got back." She laughed and slurred more.
I put my arm around her waist and guided her to my bed.
"Hey Kris, did you know Geno had her here?" She asked sounding like a little girl.
"Not until after the game. I wanted to call you, but decided that I would wait and tell you when we got back. I think a lot of the guys were." I replied.
"Am I not pretty enough? I mean, I tried so hard to be what he wanted. I grew my hair out longer and dyed it blonde, tried to lose weight, be there for him..." She trailed off.
"Heather, you are beautiful! And as far as being what he wanted, you need to be you! I love being around you when he's not. You become this fun person. When we hang out you make me laugh. When he's around, you become a robot. You aren't real like." I said pushing her bangs out of her face.
"I want to do something right now, but I don't know if it's because I am drunk or because I truely want to." She said. God it was so cute how she jumpedaround when she talked.
"What do you want to do?" I replied noticing my headache was gone.
"Oh...nothing. Look, I'm gonna go back to my room. Thanks for talking." She got up and stumbled trying to walk in a straight line.
:Stay? We can watch MTV or something. We have tomorrow off so, sleeping isn't really needed."
"But I don't have any clothes. And when Kelsey comes back with TK she will wonder where I am at." She replied.
"I'll text her saying I wanted someone to stay with me and asked you. Get one of my Kasual shirts out. You can sleep in that." I replied texting Talbot and Kelsey.
"What about Talbot?" SShe asked shyly.
"I texted him and Godard answered saying he is passed out there. Kelsey is staying in your room with TK. So you know what will happen there!" I replied laughing and shutting my phone.
"Oh Lord! Fine, where's your shirt?"
I turned on the lgiht for the first time and took notice to what she was wearing. Her bleach blonde hair was 3/4 the way down her back. Her 5'11 athletic frame was draped in form fitting flare jeans, black heels, and a sexy red and black checkered top. "It's uh...." I couldn't think. I had never seen her like that. "In my black bag over here." I got up and got it for her. It was going on 5 AM now. God only knows why she got dressed for bed now.
-Heathers pov-
I went into the bathroom to cahnge. The nights events were catching up to me. As I put on his black Kasual shirt, I couldn't help but taking in his scent on it. "God, he smells so damn good!" I thought.
"Hey, you okay or do you need me to hold your hair?" A concerned Kris called through the door.
"I'm fine. Just folding up my clothes." I responded.
When I came out he was laying on his bed with just sweatpants on. He patted the spot next to him. I was so ired I got on the soft bed and cuddled up next to him. I was so tired and drunk I must of crashed . When I woke up it was past noon. Kris was nowhere to be found. Beside me wasa pink stargazer lilly(my absolute fave flower), a bagel, and a note. On the night stand was a sprite. I picked up the note and read:
Heather,
Went to the gym in town. Decided to let you sleep. Don't bother going to your room...it's occupied haha! We are close to the same size so just grab some of my clothes. Be back around 12:30. Hope you are feeling better! Later-Kris

I got up, grabbed a pair of his tattered Kasual jeans (yes I know.....haha everytime I have ever seen him anywhere he has on something Kasual lol:) ) and a white t-shirt. I had to laugh because I had to wear heels. I wasn't going to interupt the current "lovefest" going on in my room! I decided to call a cab and go to the mall. I had no way to do my makeup so I touched it up the best I could. I used some of his hair supplies to fix my hair and used my finger and toothpaste to brush my teeth. I ate my bagel and drank my sprite while waiting for the cab to come. I sent Kris a text telling him where I was going and asked him to send me a text if he wanted to meet up. I sent Mischa (Talbot's girl) and Sarah a text of where I would be. I had a lot to do today and not a lot of time to do it in.

-Kris' POV-

She had snuggled with me so close while she slept. She looked so peaceful until she started talking about Geno in her sleep. I couldn't take it anymore and around 9 decied to go to the gym. I left her a note and a hangover breakfast(thanks to Talbot I knew what to get her since I only drink a little), and left. It was a fifteen minute walk to the gym so instead of taking a cab or bus, I decied to walk it. I turned my I-Pod on and started running. I had to clear my head. Since Jenny died, I didn't think I could ever feel this way about a woman. When I got to the gym it was nice to see it slightly empty. I got so into my workout that I didn't even notice the time. It was 2:20 when I looked at the clock. "Shit! I told her I would be back by 12:30! I hope he doesn't think I was eatten alive by some puckbunnies!" I thought to myself. I hurried to the locker room and pulled out my cellphone. I had 5 missed texts and 2 missed calls. My mom and Sid had called me. I had texts from TK, Staalsy, Talbot, Godard, and her. I passed up everyone elses for hers.
Thanks for leaving me that note and breakfast! That was really sweet hon! :) Going to mall. Called cab. Come meet me up if you want! xoxo
I grabbed a quick shower and got a cab to the mall.
I'm here. -K
Meet me in ten at the food court! xoxo
K. Stopping by LV. Going to get my mom somethng for her b-day.-K
When I got to the food court, I looked for her long blonde hair and didn't see her.
Where are you at?-K
Looking dead at you :) xoxo
Where?-K
Look to your left hehe xoxo
I looked and saw a girl with dark brown short hair sorta like mine looking at me. She kind of looked like Heather, but not. My cell vibrating got my attention.
Gonna keep staring at me or come talk to me? xoxo
"HOLY SHIT! I didn't even know it was her!

-HPOV-
I lauged when he figured out it was me. It was so cute! That shy smile was to die for! Why had I never took notice before? Was I THAT involved with Geno? As he walked closer, I unconsicously fixed my new short dark brown inverted bob.
"You look absolutely stunning!" He said as he got closer.
"Thanks!" I smiled shyly.
"You cut your hair off....why?"
"Because I wanted to be free and to be me."
He was looking me up and down. I had purchased a completely new outfit and jewelry. Got my nails done and my makeup as well. Thank God for upscale salaons! The only downfall was I blew through $1500 in 2 hours! I pulled at my denim miniskirt. I felt self concious of how I looked. It was January but Sarah, Mischa, and I went tanning so I wasn't pale. I just felt out of place. I had gotten a teal tank top, matching flip flops, some silver hoop earrings, a flat topped ring, and a silver angel wing necklace to complete my new look. My stomach growling made me snap back to reality.
"Some of the guys are going to that seafood place with Malone tonight. You wanna go?" He asked shyly.
"You mean on a date?" I smiled.
"Well, umm....if you want to call it that."
"What time?" It was already 4:30.
"5ish. Malones wife and kids are coming too. You, Mishca, and Sarah alwys got along with Stephanie. Gneo will be there though. Is that okay?"
"Yeah it's fine. We better go."
We grabbed the bus becasue we decided it would be quicker than waiting for a cab. We got there at 6:15....fashionably late! When we rounded th corner my bff's and their significant others were waiting. Nobody including Sarah recognized me.
"Hey Kris! Whose the hottie?" Talbot asked with smile. That got hm elbowed by Mishca and an eye roll as well.
"My date." He smiled.
"Very pretty girl! Where did you meet?" Kelsey, TK's girlfriend asked.
"Geno's house. Awhile ago." He replied looking at Geno.
"She never at my house!" Geno replied in his broken English.
"Oh yeah I was!" I replied. "I lived there until that tramp." I said pointing at Oksana, "took my place!"
Kris grabbed my hand in response to my anger.
"Calm down." He whispered into my ear.
"Heather?!" I heard Sarah call.
"Yep! The new and improved!" I smiled.
"OMG! HOTNESS!" Mishca said.
"Guys, I would LOVE to talk but I haven't eatten all day and I am STARVED! Can we go inside?" I asked.
"Sure! Malone should be inside." Sid said smiling. Like the gentleman he is, Sid held the door open for everyone. Kris and I were inseperable the whole night. When asked if we were together, we looked at each other and then at Geno/Oksana and smiled.
"Nope, just friend like always." I replied hiding my true feelings inside.
"You two look like twin wth our hair cut the same way!" Oksana sai, her voice full of hate.
"I think she's beautiful!" TK rplied smiling at Heather They had been best friends since practically birth.
"Aww! Thank you TK!"
"So, TK, when is the wedding?" Malone asked trying to change the subject all together.
"Well," He laughed, "before Flower and after Army!"
"Oh Lord!" Kelsey said playfully smacking TK, "July 26th."
"Wow less than a year! This summer will be busy! We got Sid/Sarah, Army/Michelle, Flower/Vero, and you two!" Malone responded.
"Frequent flyer miles!!!!! Chicka chee chee!" Talbot said. That lifted the mood.
After a lovely seafood dinner we split up into groups. We were leaving te next morning so most of us responsible adults ddnt want to stay out....too late. :)
Sarh, Mischa, their boyfriends, Kris and I went ot the club. We didn't want a repeat of the night before so we went to a different one than the others. After getting enough alchol sin me I started dancing with Tanger. VIP in Tampa Bay was so different than Diesel! I waved to Sarah and Sid on the other side f the club. Those two trying to dance was a funny site to see even drunk! Talbot and Mischa were tearing up thedance floor. Made me look stupid. Kris had a beer in his hand and was trying like Sid t rock to the music. I walked up to himand started grinding on him. e was so shy he stopped moving.

-KPOV-
She was grinding her ass onme like no girl ever had. She looked so damn good! Talbot gave me a thumbs up as he dance and I just smiled back. When I couldn't control it anymore I sopped dancing. She looked at me confused. I motined I wanted to sit down and she followed. "C'mon Kris! She broke up with a guy yesterday! She doesn't want you!" I thought to myself. Just then TK came up.
"Hey Heather, Kelsey wants to dance and I am pooped. Will you go dance with with her for awhile?"
"SURE!" She yelled back huggng him as she got up.
When she was gone TK looked at me. I hated that look. It was his serious girl look.
"Dude! She is SO feeling you! She told me one night a long time ago when she was drunk! She said she wished Geno was you! She likes you man! When she dated any other guy she never looked at them the way she looks at you! I should know, I saw her every summer!"
"TK! CMON! She is out on the rebound. I want a real girlfriend. A real relationship. You know how I am."
"Do what you want bu you are stupid if you let her get away."
I watched as he walked up to Heather and Kelsey grinding on the dance floor. "Well Tangers, its now or never." I thought to myself.
"Hey Heather, I'm leaving. Here's my room key. We are roomies now. You wanna go back with me or stay until the club closes at 2?" I asked sorta hoping she would stay.
"Stay here! I'll see ya around 2:30 hon!" She replied.
"I got her!" Sarah said smiling.
"Thanks!" I replied. I knew Sarah was level headed and Heather would be safe with her and Mischa. I was off to find a Wal-Mart.....

-HPOV-
Sarah got tired about 1:30. It had been about half an hour since Tanger left. We all got on the bus nd went to the hotel. I was buzzed but very coherant. I said good-night to everyone and went to Kris' room. As I opened the door and walked in I was shocked. Candles were lite everywhere and Robin Thicke was playing softly in the background.
"Suprise...." Tanger said shyly smiling.
"Oh Tangers! Its...."
"A horrible idea. I'm sor..."

-KPOV-

Midsentence I was cut off by her lips pressing against mine. I lightly pushed her up against the now closed hotel door.
My hands ran over her body. She wasn't too skinny, but she wasn't heavy either. Just like I liked my women. Something to hold on to.
"Kris..." She sighed.
"Huh?" I asked looking her in the eyes.
"Are you sure?" She looked concerned.
"Mmmhhmmm." I said kissing her lips again. I needed to feel them on mine. Just then Promise by Jagged Edge came on.
"I love this song!" She said smiling the smile I liked so much.
"I know. I borrowed Staalsys compuer and burned a cd." I said so proud of my efforts. "Follow me." I said taking her hand and leading her to the jacuzzi tub filled with bubbles and floating rose petals.
"Tangers, why? Why me?" She asked.
"Ever since I lost Jenny, I felt like I couldn't be with anyone else. My world stopped. Then the othe night, I don't know. Seeing you heartbroken and down. I just wanted to be there for you. I never want to see you like that again. It broke my heart. I promise, I would never do what Geno did to you. You deserve so much more than that."
I saw tears forming in her eyes. I lifting my hand and wiped the single tear with my thumb.
"Kris, I dunno what to say. Thank you." She moved in to kiss me again.
That got me going again and there was no stopping myself this time. I reached for the bottom of er shirt and tugged it over her head. She was tugging at mine next. BeforeI knew it we were in the tub together. Everything was happening so fast, yet it felt so right.
"Kris..." She mummbled in between kisses.
"Yeah?" I asked only half listening.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" She asked me again.
I leaned her back against the back of the tub and kissed her neck. When she moaned I took that as okay to proceed.
"Kris....the bed....now" She said in a moment of passion.
We got out of the tub and I carried her straight to the bed.
She kissed me so needy. She let out a small gasp as I entered her.
"Oh God Kris!" She moaned as she moved in sync with me.
I couldn't last anymore after feeling her climax for the last time.
When we were done, I looked over at her and saw her smiling.
"What's that smile about?" I asked half laughing.
"That was the first time I never faked!" She laughed.
"Are you fucking serious?!" I askd dumbfounded.
"Yep! HAHA!"
We curled up together and fell asleep. I couldn't believe how lucky I was at that moment.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Part One

I watched as she walked away. She wouldn’t turn around this time. She didn’t want me to see her cry. I knew I couldn’t make this wrong right again. I couldn’t believe I was so stupid. I stood there helpless, tears holding back in my eyes. I was a man and I was weak. She left with one of my best friends and teammates and I stood there with a dumb Russian blonde that ruined everything. I needed to get away and think. I heard her call to our friends Max Talbot and Matt Cooke but I couldn’t hear over the music. Right then another teammate Kris Letang ended up throwing up all over the bar. I couldn’t watch this anymore. I watched as Talbot and Cooke carried Tanger out of the bar with her following.
“I’m going back to the hotel.” I said in Russian to my former girlfriend and nemesis Oksana.“Why?” She asked, looking into my eyes in a way she knew I could not resist drunk.“I need to think. I will get you a different room at the hotel.” I replied grabbing my jacket and walking out. My former teammate Ryan Malone looked at me with hate when I walked past. My cell phone vibrated right then. I looked down to see it was another teammate of mine named Jordan Staal.
You really fucked up this time Geno. Great way to ruin a perfect road trip.
I looked in his direction as he took another shot. The guys were living up this winning streak. She left with Kris Letang, one of my best friends here in the states. He seemed pretty drunk, throwing up and falling down all over the place.

Heather’s POV
I decided to surprise the team by coming to Tampa Bay to watch them play. I was really excited to see my boyfriend Evgeni Malkin of the Pittsburgh Penguins. The team had become my friends over the past few months we had been together. It had only been a few days but I missed him so much. I was going crazy. The only person who knew I was even in town yet was Sid Crosby. He had become a really great friend of mine over time. I smiled in his direction as I walked into the bar. He didn’t look to happy to see me there. It looked like he was in agony. Then I saw what he was looking at and I couldn’t believe it. There was my boyfriend with his ex straddling him on a couch in this bar in the middle of nowhere. He had no idea anyone else but Oksana was in the room. I went up to the bar and downed a few shots before I went over to confront him. “What the FUCK are you DOING?!” I screamed over the music. I didn’t care who was watching.
“Heather?! What are you doing here?” Geno asked in his adorable broken English.
“I came here to see MY boyfriend only to find him with this…..skank! That’s what I am doing!” I replied back. This wasn’t the first time I had caught them together. I let it go all the other times, but this was it.
All Oksana did was smile up at me like she had won. Even though he was drunk, there was no excuse this time. I turned around to leave. I didn’t dare let him see the tears about to fall from my eyes. Before I could get to the door though I heard Talbot call my name. I turned in his direction to find Kris Letang with his head on the bar not looking too hot. I walked over to see what was wrong.
“Hey hon, come here.” Talbot said, seeing the hurt in my eyes.
“What?” I asked, trying my damnedest not to let the tears burning my eyes fall.
“It will be okay! You are surrounded by sexy, hot, horny, and drunk hockey players that adore you!” He slurred in his drunkeness.
“Oh really Maxie?!” I replied now trying not to crack a smile. I looked down at Tanger and then back to Talbot. “Oh, he’s too drunk or something. Said his head hurt. I gotta piss…..I’ll be right back.” He stumbled over to the bathroom and I lost it laughing then.
“Tanger….Kris….you okay?” I asked, sitting down next to him.
“Mhmm….head…..not….” He couldn’t even put a sentence together.
When he put his head up, he looked like he could blow chunks any minute.I spotted Talbot coming out of the bathroom and Cooke close by so I yelled for them to come over.“Can you help Tanger to my rental? I am gonna take him back to the hotel now.” I asked. I then caught him from the corner of my eye looking at me and knew I had to leave then.“Sure…..oh God Tanger! This is a $5000 suit man!” I heard Cooke say as he went to help Tanger stand up. I knew that smell anywhere. Tanger just barfed on Cooke and Talbot.