Part 5!!!

WOOO!! Go PENS!!!!! We did it! I was lucky enough to get to go to a game because my friend passed away recently and had two tickets and his g/f gave them to me because she didn't feel right going and knew how much him and I loved the guys. We won that game and I swear I felt my buddy there with me! Once again, thanks to the girls who follow this story and leave comments they mean SO much! Now on to the story....


-KPOV-
I just told a female that wasn't family that I loved them. I hadn't done that since Jenny died. I was filled with so many mixed emotions I felt like I had to get out for awhile and clear my head.
"Hey I am really hungry for some Chinese, you want any?" I asked moving away from her.
She looked really hurt at this, but there was nothing I could say.
"I just told you I loved you and you said you love me and all you can think about is food?" She asked looking at the floor. "Man, must be some strong feelings there."
"Look, I do. I just...." I couldn't talk. I grabbed my keys and left.
I jumped in my blakc BMW 325 I and took off. I had no idea where I was going conciously, but the car knew the way. It was a long 25 minute drive to the graveyard. I had no idea what drove me here, but I felt I had to okay this with Jenny. I made a promise when she died that I would never give my heart again. I got out and walked to her site. The pink and purple roses I had left the last time I was here were still on top.
"Hey Jenny. I don't know why I am here. I felt like I had to talk to someone. You were always my ear after Luc died. I hope you aren't mad at me. I never knew that I would or could feel this way about anyone but you. Everything around here reminds me of you. At the hospital, all I could do was remember getting there and getting the news. I hope you know I tried to get there before you were gone. I miss you so much....sometimes it hurts so bad to go back to the loft and know you aren't going to be there. I expect to walk in and trip over your shoes, remember how you always left them there and it never failed that I would find them? Haha....oh remember the time you left them there and I fell and broke my tailbone?! I thought Coach was gonna die when I had to sit out two days of practice!" Tears were streaming down my face now. I felt so dumb talking to a stone, but I felt like she could hear me. "Enough about that, I just need to know that its okay that I'm trying to move on. I want you to know you will always have a special place in my heart nobody will ever get to. I will never forget you and the times we had. You were my best friend and always will be. I miss you so much." I kissed the stone and went to my car. It started to rain right as I started the car. I looked up to the sky and saw the brightest rainbow I had ever seen before. I knew that it was Jenny telling me everything would be okay. I smiled at the sky. "Thanks Jenny." I drove back to the loft. I had to make it up to Heather.

-HPOV-
When he walked out, I stood there shocked for about twenty minutes. When that wore off, I called Talbot. Him and I were getting really close lately.
"Superstar here, I pimp em you freak em."
I died laughing. "STFU!" I said through the laughter, "Can you stop by? I really need someone to talk to and well, you always make me laugh."
"Sure babes. What's wrong? I'm on my way to get Cooke now. We were gonna come by with the dvd of your new music video anyway in a bit." He replied in his dropdead sexy french accent.
"Okay, well where do I start....I told Kris I loved him and he freaked out. He said he loved me too but then he just flat out flipped out and left. Idk what I did." I said now turning sad again.
"Ahhh.....don't worry about it hon. He loves you. Everybody around you two can see it. We were just wondering when it was going to happen. He probably got to thinking about Jenny. Give him time he'll come around. Hate to run, but I am at Cookes house now. We'll be there in about an hour okay? I'll call the others and tell them to come watch your big debut!"
"Okay Max. Thanks a lot!" I said and hung up the phone gingerly. Damn stitches!
About twenty minutes later, I heard footsteps in the hallway outside the door. I was sitting on the couch with ice packs on my wrists when he came through the door.
"Can we talk?" He asked with sad eyes. It looked like he had been crying.
"Sure," I said patting the couch, "come on and sit down."
He cautiously took a few steps and sat down.
"Okay, let me talk before you say anything okay? I gotta lot to say." He said in his adorable voice nobody in their right mind could resist.
"Okay." I replied, giving him my attention.
"When we first met, you know Jenny had just died. I made a promise to her that I would never love anyone again. But then, I got to know you and fell in love so hard it scared me. I was torn between you and my promsie to her. When you told me you loved me and I said it back, I didn't put my heart into it. I got scared. I meant it though. I just had to go talk to Jenny and find out if it was okay from her. When I left the cemetery today, it started to rain and then there was the most beauitful rainbow I had ever seen. It was like she was saying it was okay. You are the one I searched for since she died. I never thought this would happen but it did. I feel like I have an angel here with me when i see you. I never believed in miricles until the day I met you. In the past few months I have gotten to know you, the good and bad. You have never done anything to hurt anyone I know. You were the light in one of my darkest hours. I am in love with you. You set me free. I can't do this thing called life without you here with me. I'll never leave you like some other guys in your life have. You love me for who I am. I know it isn't going to be easy but with dedication we can make this work. I can see my future in your eyes. I realized that you were sent here for me by a higher power."
"Kris, nobody has ever said anything like that to me before. I love you so much." I had tears streaming down my face. Nobody had ever said that to me before. If he only knew how dangerously in love I was with him myself.
"So, will you and AJ move in with me here?" He looked at me with so much love in his eyes.
"Of course!" I said, I wanted to hug him but my wrists wouldn't let me.
There was a knock at the door.
"Someone supposed to be here?" He asked quizically.
"Some of the gang was coming by to watch my new music video. Cookie got it for me." I said smiling. He wiped the tears from my face, gave me a quick kiss on the lips, said he loved me, and went to open the door.
"SUPERSTAR HAS ARRIVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard Max yell when he came in.
"He thinks he's hot shit, but h hasn't scored in how many games?" I heard MAF say laughing, "Hey hon, sorry I didn't get over here earlier. Vero has her parents in for the week. She sends her love and said if you need anything girlie to give her a call." He leaned down to hug me gingerly.
"It's okay. Tell her I said thanks. I got a lot of offers for that." I smiled at him.
"How you feeling babe?" I heard Cooke ask from behind the crowd. It looked as though ninty-nine percent of the team had gathered in my livingroom. The only ones absent were Craig Adams and Miro Satan. Yes, Geno was there.
"I've been better," I said, "where's my video?! I wanna watch it!"
"Great to see you too!" He replied.
"Hey Heather! Long time no see!" Mark Eaton said as he came into view.
"Sorry, been so busy lately! Our Adrianna's need to get together soon for a playdate." I smiled at my Slooth. (*Note* If you ever watch Ice Age, look at the slooth.....it looks like Eaton in a cute way! SERIOUSLY! LOL And yes my daughters really name is Adrianna just like his!*)
"Yeah they do. Give me a call on one of our off days and I will bring her by."
After all the others said their hellos, we all got comfortable and Tanger put the dvd in.

*(This song is by Lesley Roy. She is one of the best artists I have heard in SOOOOOO long. Her cd is the one that gave me ideas for this story. The music video is my ideas for it but the song and lyrics are copyrighted to her!!!!!)*
Lyrics to the song go:

I can read the lines
On your face
And they're telling me
Everything I already know
YeahI hold you in my arms
But you're light-years away from me
Slowly sinking
Under alone
Yeah
So I act cool
On the outside
But it's eating me
Alive
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Sitting in the park after dark
Smoking cigarettes
Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all I ever wanted was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right but it's too late
I'm a hopeless case
On the insideAnd it's eating me
Alive
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can doI can't make you love me
When you don'tI see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
I dieA million times
Every time when you
Look me in the eye
And lie
Cause I've heard it all before
The same game
We go around and around
But I still end up with nothing
But hurting
Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing I can doI can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
I'm the compromise
No, I can't take another
Slow goodbye
Yeah
There's nothing I can do
I can't make you love me
When you don'tI see it in your eyesI'm the compromise
I can't take another
Slow goodbye

I heard the opening chords and got lost in the video.
It started with me playing my guitar standing in the bedroom. Cooke was packing his bag and I was singing to him. When the chorus hits, it flashes back to happier times. We are dancing in the rain, playing in the bedroom, etc. The second verse I am sitting on the hood of an old mustang with a cig in one hand and biting the black polish off my nails. We have another fight and he walks away. When the chorus comes around again, Iam playing my guitar in the rain singing my heart out outside of the house. Then comes the bridge.....we are in the room fighting. I have a cellphone in my hand and in anger I throw it at the mirror and the mirror crashes. I have the look of anger in my eyes. When the song comes around again, I am sitting on the ground crying as he walks out the door. Flashes of good times show again. The end of the song shows me walking down the street with the guitar on my back.

"WOW! That was fucking amazing!" Sid said as the song ended.
"I have to agree! Babe you are a great actor!" Scuds said from his spot on the floor.
"Hey Heather, do me a favor next time." Cooke says from across the room.
"What's that?" I ask smiling.
"Never EVER look at me that way again!" He laughed.
"Why?" I was puzzled.
"I know I told you to picture some stuff, but damn I thought you were going to kill me!"
"HAHA! Yeah! You did look like he was going to die!" Sarah laughed.
"What did you think babe?" I asked laughing looking at Kris.
"That was amazing baby! It's like you really felt what you were singing." He said kissing my cheek.
"When does it go on air?" Mischa asked.
"Yeah, I wanna call and request it a million times!" Rachel said.
"Wow guys, didn't think you would like it that much!" I was shocked and amazed people liked my music that much.
"I like. Beautiful." Geno said after being quiet for so long. "Who was for?" He asked in his broken English.
"You." I responded getting up to stretch.

-KPOV-
She had no idea how amazing her voice was. She never gave herself credit for anything. She was an amazing all around package. A great singer, dancer, songwriter, mother, and girlfriend. How did I get so lucky? She got up to stretch.
"Well guys," I hear her say, "I hate to have you come all the way here to kick you out, but I am tired and starting to really hurt so I am going to bed. It's up to Kris if you all stay, but I really don't feel like it. You guys have a game tomorrow night and it's also going to be Valentine's Day. Go spend it with your woman!"
Everyone said good night and left. They all looked pretty haggard. I know I was exhusted emotionally and phyiscally myself.
"You coming to bed?" She asked swaying her hips back and forth with a come get me grin.
"Hurting my ass!" I laughed as I picked her up and carried her down the hall. Hey, they always say makeup sex is the best!